Cool down cool down..

Life has been so ultra ultra busy... Thanks to Norman whu sold his house to French pple.. He said he quote to him v high and he agreed..

Stupid seriously.. tell us in the beginning 1 - 2 yrs stay.. now expect me to move again. It is seriously v v v tiring. Agent fee also dun wan to pay.. ass..
His agent call yest and ask us to view a house today which is near my blk.
Stay with these 2 old couple and a maid.

The feeling that i need to pack and move sucks.. November i have to take a lot a lot of leaves to clear my problems.

Saw the ROM room with bird george and DD. It is v dim and nice. All tht of a list of things to do..
Shall search for a red carpet.. if not.. just a simple walkway and start lo..
Den we go eat steamboat at Novena and karaoke later .. hehee.. i dunno y my voice sucks.
DD better least he can sing today.. DD jiayou.. ni ke yi de.. ni bu yao pa microphone.

Went to Ikea and we seach all the candles and kapo 1 candle to see if can stand on water.

Book my solemnizer Mr Eric Wong.. recommend by the forum pple. Seem nice..

Was thinking sure wear dress so fat.. wan to slim down first de.. but think also cannot la.. kept eating.

Doc say cant see my baby heart beat.. i dunno y also. already 5 weeks. But i think have la.. just havent grow ba.. When i see the picture of the egg.. its so miracle lo.
I blame myself that y i cry and hoo haa over my baby. It just happen a little fast. but i see all the babies around me..so cute.. 24 start family ok what.. DD 32 already le.. Oppss. long time i plan 24 marry.. 26 born baby.. now change cos DD will be 34.. its consider late already. its ok. its alright.

Theres this girl whu i think 15 yrs old ba with her mom to checkup.. she look pregnant cos she wear a super big size shirt. Nv get to see her stomach. Zoom...
She came out and went straight out while her mom pay. Her mom ask izzit can go poly so it wont b so expensive. Den the nurse explain to her. Her dad came a while later to ask her mom how..
Think she more stress den me lo. The idiot father dunno go where. Cannot scold him idiot la.. later is he wan the baby but the parents refuse him to see the daughter.. Than another story..

One thing i realli worry... what if my baby is born and im staying at a rent place. If so, we might move again to a new rent house and ask DD parents to come up. Wah lau... stress..
Please God, give me a house b4 my baby is born.

Smtimes i also wonder how come my family cant be there for me... kick out of the house, got baby nobody wan look after.. mom spend all her time wt him.. Alien dun need say she live in the outer space.. Bro.. bo chap.. i see DD family.. theirs is soooo different. thats y i tht of going taiping. There i can realli learn from DD parents and also to click wt them. And they are so keen to see their grandchildren which is 360 degrees change from mine. iya the more i say the more i wan to cry..

I got to survive on my own.. realli seems like i dun belong to the family.. whenever i think of them.. i realli wan to cry. sucks.

I onli left DD to love and spend his time on me.. Bo lang liao.. Iya sad sad..

But we promise and swear.. 2 years later i will have my own house.. my children cute and adorable, stable income, a pet dog... Happy and free.. All on our own.